2018 was probably one of the worst years of my life as far as finances go. In 2017 I decided to go all in on a different strategy for my construction business. It was a disaster plagued by rain, projects bid too low and the ever presence of Murphy’s stupid fucking law. 2018 was a continuation of that and more. The fucking wheels came right the fuck off. Man, what a shit show.
Anyways. This is a success blog. Nobody wants to hear about my troubles. I should be showing you pictures of my cars or something. Or my rented house that I pretend to own. Well, here you go.
Redneck ballin’ right there. That truck makes me sick. Every time I drive it I think of how shitty my year was and how I should be driving something which costs half as much. I did the same thing when I lived in Central America and was driving a BMW convertible. I always wanted a BMW and I had it. When things went bad I hated driving that car. It made me ill. I finally sold it.
Anyways. This year sucked. I cancelled our family vacation because of work. I cancelled my spring and fall walleye fishing trips because of work. I cancelled my life. I ate too much. I drank too much. I stressed too much.
Normally I look forward to Christmas. We are usually winding down our year and all my money starts rolling in. I go to some Christmas plays, Mannheim Steamroller and enjoy Christmas Eve at my church listening to Christmas carols. Not this year. As I watched the band at church on Christmas eve, I was thinking of how I was going to come up with a payment to one of my suppliers. I just didn’t know how it was possible and where this money was going to come from. It ruined my Christmas. Worst Christmas of my life. Hands down.
But you know what happened?
A bunch of checks came in. Some that I had no intention of seeing for at least a month. I was able to make my payment. I let it ruin my Christmas for nothing. All that worry for nothing. What a little bitch. I should have just tried to enjoy what I do have during this holiday season. I have a great family. Great wife. Great kids. We are all healthy. I should have focused on that. But I didn’t. I never do. Not when things are going shitty like this.
Worst year of my life. Good riddance.
I would love to tell you how everything is fine now. It ain’t.
I would love to tell you that if you have faith everything works out. Not yet. I will be sluggin this out for a while. I have a river of shit to swim through. I am too old and wise to know better. I wish I didn’t know, but I do. I know how much work I have ahead of me and the thought alone exhausts me.
But. This year is over. A new one is going to start. And I, for one, am ready and excited for the new year.
I am excited about turning things around. I am excited about losing weight and getting my fat ass back in shape. I am excited about this blog and some products I am going to be developing for it.
I am excited and ready for 2019. I am ready for what the future may bring. Who knows. It just might be the BEST year of my life. I am still here. I am still breathing. I know that I can handle pressure better than I thought. I didn’t melt down under the pressure. I fought and am still fighting. The end may be near, but it ain’t fucking here yet.
So to all of you out there. Make 2019 grand. It’s gonna be a hell of a year. My motto for the year is to Make green in 2019. Turn this ship around and make it better, stronger and more resilient.